Dad was a very ambitious artist and theater director until he married mom. Mom was a very ambitious student but had to quit school after she married dad. I seem to have inherited all of their ambitions that channel through arts and science but hardly find enough time or space in my life.
"The misfortune of my life is perhaps that I am interested in far too many things and not decidedly in some one thing; my interests are not all subordinated to one thing but are all co-ordinated." -Soren Kierkegaard
To gild the lily or add insult to injury (yet to be revealed), I have authored my own ambitious to do list that grows inexorably at astounding rates. You might refer to it as a carpe diem syndrome with bipolar outbreaks around birthday and new year memento-mori deadlines. Contrastly, with my longing for a eutopic stability that can be diagnosed with deferred happiness syndrome, I am nuked in a catch-22 situation that I have always characterized by the dilemma of "depth or breadth search" i.e. "master or jack of all trades"... I am left to choose between spreading myself too thin, or stuffing myself too thick.
So, should I elaborate further or move to a different topic et serait-il en espanol o in un altra idioma #%$?%??
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All great artists suffer from this. There is a lot of advice in the Internet but the best method is to have a group or a buddy to hold you accountable. Like he needs to make sure you fulfill whatever goal you set yourself to.
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Thank you so much Ana! An achievement-sitter or a focus-buddy sounds perfectly what I need, however, I will need much more soul-seeking to first figure out the achievements and focus that need prioritization...
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